If you’re my age you’ll remember the Duracell bunny ad where the bunny just keeps on going and going. Today I feel that’s my anxiety.
It’s weird, but I also feel grateful, regardless. I’m grateful that I have something that makes me reassess. I am grateful to be sat in my house.
But I also am fighting this urge that tells me I must, this second, be out in the sun, that is currently shining (no guarantee in the British summertime). I will go out of course, but it’s these MUST and HAVE TO feelings that are the signature of anxiety that just won’t quit. It’s like a dictator who constantly is telling you what to do and how to feel. But you have to remember that it’s not you.
There’s a lot going on in the world these days. There’s political unrest. There is cronyism and corruption in government. They’ve just effectively banned abortion rights in the US, for fuck’s sake. It’s really difficult to believe that everything is gonna be alright when it’s all so turbulent out there.
But for me, I think the individual can only deal with what they can deal with – with what they can control. You have to learn to compartmentalise all that shit.
Still, that bunny is always hitting its fucking drum.