I'm Matt, creative, writer and illustrator of the book "Tell Your Negative Thoughts to STFU". This is an anxiety blog where you'll find my ramblings on mental health, with various book recommendations and some chill music thrown in.
If I have to hear another “This year hasn’t been easy for any of us” in a radio ad.
We’ve been here, in our houses as our jobs disappeared. We’ve seen relatives get sick. We’ve cared for neighbours. We’ve watched politicians politicise everything. We’ve watched them give money we need to their mates. We’ve seen NHS heroes exhausted, shell shocked and STILL under supported.
We know it’s been a bloody hard year!
But it’s also been a year that has taught us about being close to our families. And to be grateful for what we have.
Because life gets dark sometimes, but there is always light if you look for it.
But for christmas-bloody-sake, stop harping on about “This year hasn’t been easy” you carbon copywriting twats!
Maybe after months and months and bloody months of being indoors and only going out to go to the local shop or to my kids school and pretty much nowhere else, I’ve been institutionalised, so much so that the thought of going to London is weird as fuck.
I’m actually going tomorrow, to a private venue where I will meet my new workmates and also have Christmas drinks with them, and as there are only a few it’s not a big deal.
But it still causes me a lot of anxiety. Because London is almost in Tier 3 lockdown, and I’m not sure why we are doing this while Covid is on the increase again.
But I agreed to it a week or so ago and I’m going to follow through.
And the only way to deal with it is to get all my clothes ready, work out the trains and tell my brain to calm down and shut the fuck up.
Because it’ll be fine, it’ll all be fine (unless someone has Covid), and it’s just my monkey brain again getting bored because of staying in a lot and making things up.
How are you dear reader? I hope you are doing good.
I’ve been so busy getting as much freelance as I can on the run up to Christmas. I’ve hardly had time to think about anxiety which I suppose has been a blessing.
Once I was told “There’s a thin line between anxiety and excitement, so why not choose excitement?” which sometimes is a nice way to break yourself out of things. And I’m one of those annoying people that LOVE Christmas so I can’t help but get excited at this time of the year.
I think another reason I am feeling okay at the moment is actually being too busy to get caught up in the news. What a massive neg-party it has been this year. If they aren’t reporting on Covid, they’re reporting on another business going bust, or the impending doom of Brexit. So I find it helps to turn off the news for a few days and detox from all that doom casting.
Anyway, I promise not to leave it so long until my next post. Speak soon!